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I Didn’t Even Want to Live, But God Forced Me to Reincarnate!

Genres: Fantasy, Slice of Life, Comedy, Drama

Tags : Reincarnation, Female Protagonist, Age Progression, Sword and Magic

Status : Ongoing, active

Advanced chapter(s) available in Patreon!


Summary :

A duke’s daughter wanted nothing in her life but the sweet nothingness of death, as she felt like her life served no purpose. Her wish was granted when she was killed in an unfortunate accident, yet in a sudden turn of events, she was forced to reincarnate.

As fate has it, she was reborn in her original world, but not directly after her death. As she is living her new life, she tries to forget the pain of her old life. But, what exactly is behind her reincarnation? Will she be able to live her new life to the fullest?


April Fools Special Summary : (but it’s also accurate!)

I finally died! (*•̀ᴗ•́*)و ̑̑

Goodbye terrible life, goodbye family that didn’t want me in the first place.

Welcome, sweet nothingness of death!

…Wait a minute.

Why is god forcing someone like me to reincarnate? After all, I didn’t accomplish anything before my death.

And, was I reborn in the same world again? Well for now, let’s just see how my life goes, this time!

-by: This Novel’s Main Character-


Side series : Returning to the Other World with My Children, Also…?!


Table of Content :

PS: This story is hosted on several other platforms. Some platforms may have different chapter numbering/parting. Patreon’s advanced chapter numbering also uses this page’s chapter order.

List of other platforms: CreativeNovel (CrN), Webnovel (QI), RoyalRoad, Wattpad, ScribbleHub

Click here to read my interview with CrN’s staff when I joined them~ (PS: CreativeNovel has a library system that you can use to track your progress as long as you register there~!)



Indonesian translation by kidriz1412

Art Section ❤ 

PS: Feel free to submit your fan art if you’re making any >< I’d be happy~!


Phase 0 – Re:Birth


Phase 1 – Lyra

Arc 1 – Getting Used to This Peaceful Life

Arc 2 – Chinosato Arc

Arc 3 – Entering Academy Arc!


Extras :


Comment Away~!


    FINALLY FOUND IT AGAIN! Thank you for writing this god awesome story! One of the best original’s i’ve read in a while… time to dig in. Plis updates 😀

    • Thank you so much for your compliment and thanks for enjoying my original series ;___;/ I’ll be more active in updating it! Hope you will continue to enjoy the series ^o^/

      • It’s an original story?!… I thought it’s a translated light novel. I just found it randomly while searching for another translated story ( specially the transmigation or rebirth story). Anyway, it’s refreshing to read. The MC rebirth on the same universe that she lived before. She got a chance to meet her past family/relative which will give this story a twist. I mean, what will she do if she, by a chance meet them. That’s make me want to read more to find out.
        Well, keep the good work and good luck ❤️❤️
        ( PS. I’m not good in english. So excuse me, if I have wrong grammar)

        • LynneSuzuran

          October 8, 2018 at 9:06 pm

          Yup, it’s an original story XD
          It was mainly influenced by Japanese web/light novels, so perhaps that’s why some people thought that it’s similar to translated light novel.

          I’m glad to hear that! I also made the story while imagining about what if one were to reincarnate in the same world with past self’s acquaintances? And that’s how this story came to life :3

          Thanks for reading and I hope you’ll be able to enjoy the novel in the future, too!
          And your English is good! ^^

  2. I really like how you write your series its full of life and energy and as a rookie novelist I’d like to ask for some guidance in making a good piece as good as yours

    • LynneSuzuran

      April 8, 2018 at 5:42 am

      First of all, thanks for reading XD
      And I am also a newbie in terms of writing…
      I think in order to be able to write okay, you also have to read lots of novels.
      I was an avid reader back then, but often during reading, there was this feeling that went, “This novel is good, but I want to read a story where there is this, and that”. That motivated me to write this story!

      So, as far as I can say, read lots of stories and then try to write something that you will enjoy reading! ^^

  3. I’m absolutely in love with this story! The characters are interesting and most important of all Lyra is adorable! Keep up the amazing work, I can’t wait to read more!

    • LynneSuzuran

      May 7, 2018 at 8:01 am

      Aww, thank you very much for your kind words XD
      I also hope that I can write better as time goes by, and that hopefully you will continue to enjoy the story~!

  4. I randomly found this story today and decided to read it for no good reason without putting much thought into it. I’m glad I did because it became one of my favorites within a few chapters! I’m looking forwards to new chapters.

    • LynneSuzuran

      May 13, 2018 at 4:58 pm

      Thank you! Nothing makes me happier than hearing that from my readers ^^ I hope that you will continue to enjoy this series!

  5. read all the chapters today, was not too bad, better than some others, however i really dislike the patreon tier that lets you add something to the story, i love reading the authors/writers story i hate when they ask readers what they want…like in overlord when the author gave the readers a choice to kill a sweet girl whos only trying to save her family…of course the readers chose to kill her…well the ones who actually looked at the forum

    • LynneSuzuran

      June 17, 2018 at 1:55 am

      Ah, no, that tier’s supposed to let you add something minor like naming an item (like a potion’s name or a jewel’s name) or area (like Village A in the middle of the forest) or minor characters (like Villager A in a game) that might get mentioned in the story, but not that significant.

      The tier’s rewards of adding something to the story won’t ever change any of the major story or major items/details that I’ve thought of, so don’t worry about readers changing the course of story! I will stick up with the plotline I’ve thought of since the beginning. Hope that clears everything up ^^

      Also, thanks for reading and I hope you’ll continue to enjoy the story despite any flaw it might have ><

  6. I found this when i finished catch up with latest ” different world gender change”.
    And my impressions is, this is great, better than some wn with op and dense mc and too much culinary things. *bookmark* i look forward for new chapters ?

  7. I like the story. Is this on a monthly update?

    • LynneSuzuran

      September 24, 2018 at 2:21 am

      Thank you, I’m so happy that you like this story!
      This story is updated at least weekly, by the way! The current targeted schedule is 5 chapters per month ^^
      Hope you will continue to like this story!

  8. One of the best & original (apart from the reincarnation bit ?) stories I’ve read so far!!
    Though one thing just doesn’t add up: Lyra’s world is kinda advanced both scientifically & magically, but they still use horse carriages for transport!!??

    • LynneSuzuran

      October 8, 2018 at 9:02 pm

      Thanks for your kind words!
      I love the premise of reincarnation after all >w< Ah, I think I really need to create a chapter specially dedicated to explain about their transportation or technology to clarify things? XD They actually also have mana-powered carriages~

  9. Well i think no need to deducting a special chapter just for explanation of the world technology maybe you can explain some if needed

    • LynneSuzuran

      November 27, 2018 at 2:17 am

      Yup, I think I will be explaining it in the upcoming extra… in the future XD Hope it can serve well as an explanation chapter~!

  10. Just found this story in RRL and I must say that I got hooked to this story even though it is still pretty short right now(it’s not long enough for me to binge read) 🙂
    Anyway keep up the good work and I hope you continue writing the story for everyone to enjoy. Thanks very much.

    • LynneSuzuran

      November 27, 2018 at 9:44 pm

      Sorry for my late response and thank you so much for your kind words!
      I’m so happy to know that you like my story! I hope you’ll be looking forward to the future chapters as well!
      Knowing that there are readers who like my story will be a great motivation for me! ^^
      Thanks for reading and commenting, by the way 😀

  11. I found this novel while I was reading “The Villains Need to Save the World?” at creativenovels and it was really fun, It has a ton of original ideas that I did’t see before so I couldn’t help but enjoy it. Also I was really confused whether it was a chinese or a japanese novel and later on I discovered that it was an original novel and made me more than surprised.
    The idea of making her brother powerful is really good and the characteristics of a shoujo aren’t bad at all! I really wonder if the novel will emphasize in the growth of power of the protagonist, but well, I’ll patiently wait and see how this wonderful novel develope!!
    (Ps: I red the comment of Lucky lucky, I don’t know english too, so I’m sorry if it was difficult to read)

    • LynneSuzuran

      November 27, 2018 at 9:50 pm

      Sorry for my late response and thank you so much for your kind words!
      I’m so happy that this story can make you think like that ^^
      Please look forward to the future chapters as well, and don’t hesitate to drop some comments sometimes :3
      (PS: No problem, your English is good~! ^^)

  12. Aww, no new chapter this month. Well, enjoy your holidays Lyne
    And happy new year

  13. Gackt1, here to wish you have a happy new year ヾ(-_- )ゞ

  14. Hi!! Thank you so much for translating this series, I like it so much and your translation is easy to read, even if I’m not english…Can I ask you just one thing? Where are the direct link from chapter 58 to 62? Because to read those chapter I had to start from chapter 57 and then keep going to “next chapter” to read the others. Sorry for my terrible english, I hope I managed to explain myself properly…

    • I apologize…I thought it was a translated novel, but I just noticed that this is an original story, and I’m really sorry for the misunderstanding!! I read all the chapter so far in just 2 days (just because I had to go to work, but I wanted to keep reading), and let me thank you again, this time properly, for all your good work! Great story, intresting characters, magic, a loving (and a bit doting) family and a cute mc…it became one of my favorite novel!!

      • LynneSuzuran

        January 19, 2019 at 3:38 am

        No problem, I feel flattered to know that, actually >< I'm so happy to hear that you like this novel! I hope you will continue to enjoy and like this novel in the future, too! On a side note, I will update the TOC hehe ^^

  15. It’s a good story IMO. *Please provide a character guide.* That would make it easier to read since I easily forget names and I start to get confused who is being referred to. Like during the vacation spy arc I was totally confused about who was who and some of your details were lost on me. Instead of expecting me to go back earlier and hunt through and rereading chapters, a character guide would be so much better.

    A character guide is simply a list of characters, their names and how we know them.(race family etc) Obvious it will spoil new characters so please list them in order of introduction but how ever you decide to do it will be better than nothing.

    • Thank you so much for your suggestion!
      That’s a nice idea as I’ve felt the same way when I read a long Chinese novel with many characters (whose names are so similar to one another…)
      I’ll put that on my to-do-list here ><
      Thanks for reading and I hope you will continue to enjoy this story~!

  16. Bryson Lloyd Pond

    June 15, 2019 at 3:53 am

    It has been awhile since you last updated your novel for this site will more chapters be coming soon?

    • LynneSuzuran

      June 15, 2019 at 10:43 am

      Hello and thanks for reading!
      New chapters will continue to come! Sorry for the irregular updates, been quite hectic in real life these days… I’m still trying to adjust so that I will be able to have a regular update schedule again! Sorry for the inconvenience and I hope you will continue to look forward to the story! >< Psst, I'm going to publish a new chapter right after this~

  17. I wish to make a digital art of your Main Character of this novel. Would you mind if I did it?

    • LynneSuzuran

      June 18, 2019 at 7:02 pm

      Hello, I don’t mind at all! I will be thankful instead! XD
      There’s a fan art page and I’d gladly put your art there so others can see it too :3

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