I Didn’t Even Want to Live, But God Forced Me to Reincarnate!

Genres: Fantasy, Slice of Life, Comedy, Drama

Tags : Reincarnation, Female Protagonist, Age Progression, Sword and Magic

Status : Ongoing, active

Advanced chapter(s) available in Patreon!

Summary :

A duke’s daughter wanted nothing in her life but the sweet nothingness of death, as she felt like her life served no purpose. Her wish was granted when she was killed in an unfortunate accident, yet in a sudden turn of events, she was forced to reincarnate.

As fate has it, she was reborn in her original world, but not directly after her death. As she is living her new life, she tries to forget the pain of her old life. But, what exactly is behind her reincarnation? Will she be able to live her new life to the fullest?

April Fools Special Summary : (but it’s also accurate!)

I finally died! (*•̀ᴗ•́*)و ̑̑

Goodbye terrible life, goodbye family that didn’t want me in the first place.

Welcome, sweet nothingness of death!

…Wait a minute.

Why is god forcing someone like me to reincarnate? After all, I didn’t accomplish anything before my death.

And, was I reborn in the same world again? Well for now, let’s just see how my life goes, this time!

-by: This Novel’s Main Character-

Side series : Returning to the Other World with My Children, Also…?!

Table of Content :

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Miscellaneous:

World Explanation

Character Page

Art Section ❤

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Indonesian translation by kidriz1412

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[Fan Fiction] Silent Observer by sch (inspired by chapter 123)

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Phase 0 – Re:Birth

• Prologue
• Chapter 1 : The Grabberton Family
• Chapter 2 : Fate
• Chapter 3 : Reincarnate or Disappear!
• Chapter 4 : Re:birth

Phase 1 – Lyra

Arc 1 – Getting Used to This Peaceful Life

• Chapter 5 : Hello, Mother
• Chapter 5.5 : Hello, Daughter
• Chapter 6 : A New Home
• Chapter 7 : The Whole Family, Complete Members
• Chapter 8 : The Hartmann Family and Details About My New Home
• Chapter 9 : Hartmann Family’s Special Arts
• Chapter 10 : Third Birthday
• Chapter 11 : Magic Elements
• Chapter 12 : The Training
• Chapter 12.5 : My Daughter’s First Training
• Chapter 13 : Alt-nii’s Enrollment to School
• Chapter 14 : Altaire’s Sixth Birthday (1)
• Chapter 15 : Altaire’s Sixth Birthday (2)
• Chapter 16 : Altaire is An Irregularity
• Chapter 17 : Going to Capicastle
• Chapter 18 : My Magic
• Chapter 19 : Denial
• Chapter 20 : The Royal Family
• Chapter 20.5 : The Adults’ Side
• Chapter 21 : Lucius The Prince
• Chapter 22 : Showdown with The Prince
• Chapter 23 : My Education
• Chapter 24 : The Mysterious Lyra
• Chapter 25 : Fenix and My Magic Training
• Chapter 26 : The Messy Independent Training
• Chapter 27 : A Gift From God

Arc 2 – Chinosato Arc

• Chapter 28 : Winter Holiday
• Chapter 29 : The Plan
• Chapter 30 : Journey to Chinosato City
• Chapter 31 : Chinosato City
• Chapter 32 : Trouble, Troubles Everywhere
• Chapter 33 : Crisis During Vacation
• Chapter 34 : [ ]
• Chapter 35 : Mad Lunatic
• Chapter 36 : Cleaning Up After the Crisis

Arc 3 – Entering Academy Arc!

• Chapter 37 : Celebrating Fifth Birthday
• Chapter 38 : Luca’s Sixth Birthday
• Chapter 38.5 : The Things She Didn’t Know
• Chapter 39 : My Sixth Birthday, and…
• Chapter 40 : Nicole
• Chapter 41 : “Mother” and “Little Brother”
• Chapter 42 : Grabberton vs Fumitsuna
• Chapter 43 : Second Magic Test
• Chapter 44 : Preparing for Entrance Exams
• Chapter 44.5 : Cyan’s “Blessing”
• Chapter 45 : Entrance Exams and…
• Chapter 46 : General Knowledge Test and Displaying My Swordsmanship
• Chapter 47 : Last One in the Menu: Magic Exam!
• Chapter 48 : Enrollment to Harmonia Academy
• Chapter 49 : First Day of School!
• Chapter 50 : Senior
• Chapter 51 : An Unexpected Storm
• Chapter 52 : The Rumored Girl
• Chapter 53 : Siblings Team Battle, Against A Dragon!
• Chapter 54 : More Surprising Things
• Chapter 55 : School Day 2 and Iris
• Chapter 56 : School Day 3 is Very Chaotic!
• Chapter 57 : A Day of Sword and Magic
• Chapter 58 : Day 3’s Night and Day 4’s Activities
• Chapter 59 : Day 5, Another Interesting Day
• Chapter 60 : Passing Days

Arc 4 – Cyan Arc

• Chapter 61 : Sleepover Time~!
• Chapter 62 : Icarus
• Chapter 63 : Firis
• Chapter 64 : Cyan
• Chapter 64.5 : The Day We Met
• Chapter 65 : Story of the Past

Arc 5 – Introducing My Nephew!

• Chapter 66 : Magic Test at School
• Chapter 67 : Turning Seven
• Chapter 68 : Eggie’s Fate
• Chapter 69 : Peaceful Days… No?
• Chapter 70 : Overture
• Chapter 71 : An Invitation
• Chapter 72: My [Nephew]’s Sixth Birthday
  • [April Fools Edition] Chapter 72 : My [Nephew]’s Sixth Birthday
• Chapter 73 : Turning Eight
• Chapter 74 : Still My Eighth Birthday Party
• Chapter 75 : Miss You, Big Sis!
• Chapter 76 : Playing Tag
• Chapter 77 : The Treasury, Revisited
• Chapter 78 : Interlude
• Chapter 79 : Here Comes… Ein!
• Chapter 80 : Lyra vs Altaire–and Co.
• Chapter 81 : Surprise and Surprise!

Arc 6 – Younger Siblings

• Chapter 82 : On A Certain Winter
• Chapter 83 : An Addition to the Family
• Chapter 84 : Freyr and Freyja
• Chapter 85 : Bonding with the Twins~!
• Chapter 86 : The Twins’ Confusion
• Chapter 87 : Day 5 Month 5: 5th Birthday
• Chapter 88 : The Maozi Jewel
• Chapter 89 : Introduction
• Chapter 90: Seal
• Chapter 91: Debut Party
• Chapter 92: Rivals
• Chapter 93: Presents
• Chapter 94: The Magical Twins
• Chapter 95: The Princess’ Debut Party
• Chapter 96: The Hartmann Family’s Big Events

Arc 7 – Harmonia Academy Arc

• Chapter 97: On A Certain Snowy Day
• Chapter 98: Missing
• Chapter 99: Let’s Go Home
• Chapter 100: Werebeasts
• Chapter 101: Collaboration
• Chapter 102: New Power
• Chapter 103: Confession
• Chapter 104: The Trio Troublemakers
• Chapter 105: Is He Serious?
• Chapter 106: Prepare for Trouble
• Chapter 107: Against Dmitria and Valerie
• Chapter 108: This is What I Call “Victory”
• Chapter 109: The Miracle Twins
• Chapter 110: Getting Along with the Trio Troublemakers
• Chapter 111: Erneste
• Chapter 112: Harmonia Academy’s Quinquennial Event
• Chapter 113: One Night, Different Experiences
  • Fake Chapter 114 (April Fools 2020)
• Chapter 114: Will You Come?
• Chapter 115: [Little Brother]’s 22nd Birthday
• Chapter 116: Harmonia Academy’s Quinquennial Festival: Day 1
• Chapter 117: Hansel and Gretel: Festival Edition
• Chapter 118: Prophecy
• Chapter 119: Day 3 – Siblings Battle
• Chapter 120: Insecurities
• Chapter 121: Unpleasant Feelings
• Chapter 122: In Danger
• Chapter 123: [You] and [Me]
• Chapter 124: Finally Awake
• Chapter 125: Home Visit
• Chapter 126: Reconcile
• Chapter 127: Not Alone
• Chapter 128: Sharing Burdens
• Chapter 129: Training Begins
• Chapter 130: Untangle One Knot
• Chapter 131: Forgetting Something Important
• Chapter 132: Dark Magic Training

Arc 8 – Encounter Arc

• Chapter 133: Turning 11!
• Chapter 134: Can Invite?
• Chapter 135: Let’s Go and Fetch!
• Chapter 136: Briar-Rose
• Chapter 137: Ranch Life, Fun Life~
• Chapter 138: Bad Luck…?
• Chapter 139: Encounter: [ ]
• Chapter 140: Awake
• Chapter 141: Clyde and Nicole
• Chapter 142: Grabbing A Sword Again
• Chapter 143: Meteor Shower
• Chapter 144: Siblings
• Chapter 145: Fourteenth Birthday Celebration
• Chapter 146: Shaula and Titus
• Chapter 147: The Future
• Chapter 148: Differences
• Chapter 149: The Hartmann Family
• Chapter 150: How Everyone’s Doing
• Chapter 151: Loera
• Chapter 152: Please Don’t Think I’m Mental or What
• Chapter 153: Preparation to Go Back
• Chapter 154: To Silent Forest
• Chapter 155: Overcoming A Trial
• Chapter 156: I Have A Familiar!
• Chapter 157: Confiding About Past Life
• Chapter 158: Where Do Familiars Stay?

Arc 9 – Past Resolution Arc

• Chapter 159: First Step to the Plan!
• Chapter 160: Staying in the Loera Residence
• Chapter 161: Best Friend
• Chapter 162: Nicole and Reinst
• Chapter 163: Second Person
• Chapter 164: My One and Only…
• Chapter 165: Brother and Sister
  • Chapter 165.5: Brother and Sister ~Sister’s Side~
• Chapter 166: Proof
• Chapter 167: Do You Believe in Ghosts?
• Chapter 168: A Chance
• Chapter 169: Attachment
• Chapter 170: I Am The Older Sister
• Chapter 171: Our Own Path
• Chapter 172: Mother or Father?
• Chapter 173: Father
• Chapter 174: Dad
• Chapter 175: The Center of My World
• Chapter 176: Family
• Chapter 177: Unanswered Questions
• Chapter 178: Older Brother
• Chapter 179: Wedding Ceremony
• Chapter 180: Should I be Worried?
• Chapter 181: After That…
• Chapter 182: Visiting the Grave
• Chapter 183: It is Fate, Isn’t It?
• Chapter 184: Returning Home
• Chapter 185: Her Smile
• Chapter 186: Just Lyra

Phase 2 – Celeste

Arc 1 – Prologue

• Chapter 187: Alt-nii’s Request
• Chapter 188: You See…
  • Chapter 188.5: Parents
• Chapter 189: Coming-of-Age-Ceremony
• Chapter 190: Friendships
• Chapter 191: Constant
• Chapter 192: Rupert’s Big Day?!
• Chapter 193: Growing Conflict
• Chapter 194: Our Meeting?
• Chapter 195: Becoming A Third Wheel
• Chapter 196: Celeste’s Request
• Chapter 197: Lies
• Chapter 198: Father Daughter Reunion

Arc 2 – The Unknown Past…

• Chapter 199: Oriel
• Chapter 200: Naraka’s War God
• Chapter 201:
• Chapter 202:
• Chapter 203:
• Chapter 204:
• Chapter 205:
• Chapter 206:
• Chapter 207
• Chapter 208
• Chapter 209
• Chapter 210
• Chapter 211
• Chapter 212
• Chapter 213
• Chapter 214
• Chapter 215
• Chapter 216
• Chapter 217
• Chapter 218
• Chapter 219
• Chapter 220
• Chapter 221
• Chapter 222
• Chapter 223
• Chapter 224
• Chapter 225
• Chapter 226

Extras :

• • Extra 1 : Reinst’s Coming of Age Ceremony (advised to read until chapter 20.5 before reading this)
  • April Fools Special
  • Extra 2 : I Will be the Sun in Your Sky (Fenix and Cassie’s first meeting)
  • Extra 3 : Lyra and Altaire (Various siblings interaction tidbits)
  • Extra 4 : The Hartmann family’s circumstances when Cassie was pregnant with Lyra~

VIP Chapters (VIP chapters are extra chapters available only for patrons of selected tiers, they contain extra chapters that add to the story, but aren’t 100% necessary to enjoy the main story):

• VIP Chapter 1: The backstory of Fumitsuna Yuzuru’s parents (Click to read teaser)
• VIP Chapter 2: Sarri’s Backstory 1
• VIP Chapter 3: Sarri’s Backstory 2
• VIP Chapter 4: coming soon…